Colon Cancer: A Journal After Diagnosis
No one likes a gloomy girl. I picture a small house with a working fireplace, wood floors, white walls, spare. Its windows look onto greenery, including my garden. There will be a flower garden that caters to the pollinators and a vegetable garden where I grow only my favorites and a fruit tree. There willContinue reading “July 31, 2020”
Hi. I’m not sure what to say. I’m not sure how I feel. I started chemo on Monday. It’s now Thursday. It has been a very rough week. I was very nervous going to the hospital. When I arrived at the oncology center, the other patients seemed very relaxed. One was reading a book andContinue reading “July 30, 2020”
It’s 6:00 a.m. and I just woke up. I had set my alarm but didn’t need it because I awoke from a terrible nightmare. In my nightmare, I was away from home and someone took my cat out. Then they did something terrible to her. I started screaming and screaming and I woke up. I’mContinue reading “July 27, 2020”
So here are my thoughts the night before I start my first day of chemo: Bring it on. Let’s kill that goddamn tumor. Pain is quite the motivator and I have been in excruciating pain for the past hour – reminding me that the tumor is there, taking over my body. Well, tomorrow morning, noContinue reading “July 26, 2020”
Everyone tells me that these procedures are routine, no big deal. I was told this just yesterday by a friend of mine minutes before I went into surgery for the port placement. Here’s what a “routine”, “no big deal” procedure looks like. I’ll start from the beginning. My tumor has invaded my pelvis and, IContinue reading “July 25, 2020”
I’m scared. The doctor added a second day of chemo for next week. I assume it’s because he learned of the tumor’s genetics and that it is fast growing. I’m scared of the chemo and how sick I’ll be next week – the doctor already told me that after one day I’ll be very sickContinue reading “July 22, 2020”
I was just informed by my prior oncologist that my cancer has a very rare genetic change which occurs in less than 5% of colorectal cancers. Instead of having 2 copies of a certain gene, there are over 200 copies which is likely to tell the cancer to grow and divide. There are small studiesContinue reading “July 21, 2020 UPDATE”
Yesterday I cried for the first time – really cried. I spoke with my new oncologist. A one hour scheduled Zoom became a two hour conference. He explained everything to me with specificity – drug treatments, side effects, how I can expect to feel after my first chemo treatment and the second and the third.Continue reading “July 21, 2020”
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