You’re not going to believe this. Remember how I was Marie Kondoing my home? I spent a month – maybe a little more – doing it and then I thought I was finished. Well, I wasn’t. That’s right. I’m Marie Kondoing again.
You know how you put old things in a bag to toss or donate and then you let it sit for a bit to make sure you really want to get rid of those things? I didn’t deliberately do that – I thought I was going to keep what I kept. But then I got the news about no surgery (which was a relief but bad medical news) and I revisited the keep pile. I took a second look and asked, “Do I really need to keep this?”
It’s not a matter of cleaning house – my place is tidy – it’s a matter of living in the present and moving forward. It’s psychological. I don’t want the past hanging around. I want to charge forward. I want to live, live, live. I hope that with a positive attitude I will stay strong and my body will be able to fight, fight, fight. I have two projects that I want to accomplish (I’ll write about those later) and I hope that the mental benefit I derive will translate to the physical.
(I do have sad lapses but that’s the way this goes – it’s normal and inevitable – the sky is blue and the sun is shining (right now) and I want to be here to see it.)
So, I looked through the keep pile and said, “Get rid of it!!!” Bye, bye. It takes time but I hope I’ll be done this week. Freedom awaits!
I was incredibly sick again this week. I’m on the weakest chemo there is and I’m still sick. I’m not a weakling – the drugs just hit me very hard. I’m a girl who took nothing other than about 2 Advil a year before all this. Yesterday was the first day I felt better so I made myself a burger with grilled onions and slapped it on a bed of buttery, salty mashed potatoes – YUM!!!
I volunteer for a nonprofit and I have a bunch of work to do for them this week – quite a bit actually. I started working on it this morning and need to get back to it. It’s all due on Friday.
Have a good day and I’ll see you later!