Very, very long day. Very tired. Must sleep. Want to go home. Love, Molly2923
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June 20, 2020
I got a good night sleep and woke up feeling great, like me. I had a yummy breakfast – swiss omelet, toast, juice – and took a walk around the hospital floor. Today was the first day I could lift my feet off the floor when I walked rather than shuffle along, head bowed, handsContinue reading “June 20, 2020”
June 19, 2020
I am still in the hospital. As the Eagles sang, “… you can check out any time you like but you can never leave.” I really do not know where to start. I bought more data so I can write now because I have no idea when I will be discharged and neither do theContinue reading “June 19, 2020”
June 15, 2020
This is an otherworldly experience. The outside world has ceased to exist. I wake up in the dark, take a walk around the hospital floor – shuffling, shuffling, come back to bed, sleep some more, get woken up for my morning blood tests, have my vitals taken, take my medicines at regular intervals, meet withContinue reading “June 15, 2020”
June 14, 2020
I am still alive. I have so much to say but I can only type with one finger and can’t see all the keys. I had surgery yesterday at 8:30 am and was in recovery until 5:00 pm. The surgery should not have been performed. It is 5:30 am now and the hospital floor isContinue reading “June 14, 2020”
June 11, 2020
Today has been a very busy day. I am too tired and weak to write all about it. I am in the hospital now. I was just crying. I am not much of a crier. It takes a lot to get me going. I guess it has just hit me in a visceral way thatContinue reading “June 11, 2020”
June 10, 2020
It’s Noon now. I need relief. It has been many, many months and here I lie, pain-ridden and instructed not to eat. I just drink fruit juice and Ensure which I no longer like – the thought of it makes me sick. I can tell you one thing I’ve learned: Never take your appetite forContinue reading “June 10, 2020”
June 9, 2020
I decided to choose a medical oncologist before I have a surgery to make sure the oncologist is on board with the plan – basically a second opinion (not eating solids in the meantime and hungry). I met virtually with a medical oncologist today. I have Stage 4 colon cancer. The 5 yr survival rateContinue reading “June 9, 2020”
June 8, 2020
I have a medical emergency and need immediate surgery. I contacted a doctor at a different hospital today (an excellent hospital) and we had a Zoom conference. He reviewed my scans and test results (and showed them to me via Zoom) and determined that I need immediate surgery because there is a total blockage inContinue reading “June 8, 2020”
June 7, 2020
OK. I got up the courage to step on the scale. I now weigh 104.5 pounds. I am 5′ 6″ tall. I have not yet started treatment – have not even seen an oncologist. I am beyond disgusted and horrified by our medical system. No one is tracking my symptoms. No one. I am inContinue reading “June 7, 2020”
