I had a mandatory COVID test today. It lasted only about 5 seconds but I didn’t like it at all. Very uncomfortable. You have to get a COVID test 48 hours prior to any procedure involving respiration so you don’t infect the medical staff. I needed it for my sigmoidoscopy because apparently the gastro trackContinue reading “June 2, 2020”
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June 1, 2020
I was going to write a cheerful post because something miraculous happened today. My appetite came back for the first time in months and I ate a McDonald’s double cheeseburger. It was the most delicious thing I have ever tasted in my life. But things are different now. I received an email from a nurseContinue reading “June 1, 2020”
May 31, 2020
Good morning. I slept well last night and have been doing well this morning. My mother and I just had a long conversation. I need a new primary care doctor. I may be at a world-renowned hospital but, with this guy, I am just a number. Maybe I won’t survive but I’d like my careContinue reading “May 31, 2020”
May 30, 2020
I am in serious pain now – in the morning – for the first time. It’s coming from my kidney. The pain was so excruciating last night that I couldn’t take it and I am very tough when it comes to pain. I was crawling on the ground just to get to the toilet toContinue reading “May 30, 2020”
May 29, 2020
I just called the doctor’s office and was told that the MRI results were not in yet. Then I emailed my doctor and asked him to follow-up and get the results today if possible. I told him that I was in wrenching pain again last night and threw up for the second consecutive night. HeContinue reading “May 29, 2020”
May 28, 2020
I don’t know what’s happening to me. Last night, I started shivering uncontrollably. I could not get warm. I took my temperature and it was 101.1. I had pain in my abdomen – my whole abdomen – like I’ve never experienced in my life. It was brutal. Sometime during the night I felt I hadContinue reading “May 28, 2020”
May 27, 2020
I’m afraid. It’s 4:15 a.m. and I’m up for good. I haven’t really been afraid since I found out about all this on May 21st, but for some reason, I woke up this morning and all I felt was fear. I have all my remaining scans scheduled for tomorrow. (They changed my schedule). What ifContinue reading “May 27, 2020”
May 26, 2020
It’s 3:13 a.m. I just woke up in a sweat. This is the fourth night I have done so. Last week (before diagnosis), the physician’s assistant asked for a rundown of my symptoms and one of her concerns was whether I was having “night sweats”. I had just started waking up in the morning withContinue reading “May 26, 2020”
May 25, 2020
Well, it’s a new day. I am worse right now. The difference in my condition day-to-day was not as noticeable to me before my diagnosis. So either the cancer is moving aggressively or I am simply more conscious of it now that I know what is happening. Either way, it’s frightening. My MRI and CTContinue reading “May 25, 2020”
May 24, 2020
Good morning. I had a hard time sleeping last night – a lot of pain – so I went into my own bed. I had been telling my mother about the pain at night but she had never seen it. She was so upset for me this morning. She barely slept herself. This is allContinue reading “May 24, 2020”
