Sick. In bed. Nauseous, the sweats, dizzy. My chemo pump comes off this afternoon. Maybe things will improve. Scared they may get worse. Don’t want to go to the ER. Worth it. Love, Molly P.S. Feeling very alone. Sweet Pea just joined me, by my side. She is so loyal. This is what love is.Continue reading “October 22, 2020”
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October 20, 2020
I am in the hospital right now and just got Avastin which cuts off the blood supply to that greedy tumor. Soon, I’ll be getting my new chemo drugs. So I have GOOD NEWS!!! The doctor is taking me off Folfox (which caused the allergic reaction due to the Oxaliplatin) and is putting me onContinue reading “October 20, 2020”
October 17, 2020
Today was a good day. I took a break from work. Lifted weights (I’ve been lifting since I was 26 and have always loved it. I stopped going to the gym in 2010 and bought 15 lb dumbbells, 10 lb ankle weights and a mat for stretching. The weights have kept me strong for theContinue reading “October 17, 2020”
October 14, 2020
Little Sweet Pea is curled up, snoozy. Playing Gershwin – really great – full orchestra – melodic and powerful – inspiring. Am doing work-work and have been doing it for over 12 hours now. Nowhere near done. I said this yesterday – complaining about this transient normalcy – when I should be enjoying it. It’sContinue reading “October 14, 2020”
October 13, 2020
It’s late and I’m tired and I’m scared. I’ve been working hard because I feel well. I feel like me – like I don’t have cancer – like I’m healthy – but I’m not. It kind of makes this situation worse because I’m reminded of how life would be if none of this were happening.Continue reading “October 13, 2020”
October 12, 2020
Bad news. They’re taking me off the chemo drug that was working so well because of my allergic reaction and starting me on a new one. A nurse told me about a month ago that they have a bag of tools to fight the cancer and that the bag is big. She was trying toContinue reading “October 12, 2020”
October 11, 2020
I’m back. So much has happened. I’m writing again because I have found myself looking for hope about long-term survival and thinking that maybe – if all goes well – my blog can give hope to someone in the future or at least help inform them as they go through treatment. I also have aContinue reading “October 11, 2020”
August 15, 2020
I’ve thought about discontinuing this blog. All I write about it is how sick I am/feel which is just depressing. The truth is that I am now sick around the clock. It is debilitating. I got a ten minute breather yesterday and suddenly felt like me again. I put on an old disco song –Continue reading “August 15, 2020”
August 13, 2020
Hi. Again. It’s me, Molly. Feeling low. Being sick is hard. I had my second chemo treatment this past Monday. The doctor said my blood work was excellent. Good news there. The chemo hit me Monday night and I was gone on Tuesday. Sick, in bed, nauseous, unable to move or eat, throwing up. OnContinue reading “August 13, 2020”
August 9, 2020
I moved into my new apartment on August 1st. On August 2nd, I developed a 100.3 degree fever which is considered a medical emergency after chemo and was instructed to go to the local ER where I was told my fever had climbed to 101. I was x-rayed, tested, and put on an antibiotic. IContinue reading “August 9, 2020”
