Pain. Unrelenting. Don’t know if it’s my colon or the tumor. Can’t take it. Producing stool – lots of it – all day. Hope the pain is from the stool production not the tumor. Sick. Love, Molly2923
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July 18, 2020
It’s 2:15 a.m. on July 17, 2020. I’m in trouble bubble. Really sick/pain. The surgical team never called me back about my output. I left a second message yesterday morning and nothing. I haven’t had output since Sunday. I am in severe pain when I urinate and when I don’t. I’m a mess. It’s 6:30Continue reading “July 18, 2020”
July 15, 2020
I just tried on my new lavender wig. I love it. The pink wig I got is an absolutely beautiful shade of pink but the lavender suits my skin tone and eye color better. I feel a little bit like a cute alien from Lost In Space. With jeans and snow boots it will beContinue reading “July 15, 2020”
July 14, 2020
I just had my first cup of coffee since my colon woes began in earnest in February. I had a mocha java made stove top in my Bialetti with hot milk and a toasted blueberry muffin. It was so good. I mean SO GOOD. I love coffee and a muffin. Just love it. I likeContinue reading “July 14, 2020”
July 13, 2020
Lots, lots, lots of good stuff. Last Friday (3 days ago), a friend referred me to an oncologist and reached out to him. I reached out to him as well. He was out of town so I did not expect to hear back until this week. Well, he wrote back on SUNDAY and then contactedContinue reading “July 13, 2020”
July 12, 2020
7:30 a.m. No pain! Slept well. Mornings are best for me so I need to be a busy bee and get packing while I can! Talk to you later … 11:00 a.m. Pain. Took Tylenol. I ordered a bunch of synthetic wigs last night. They’ll arrive today. I want to have something to wear inContinue reading “July 12, 2020”
July 11, 2020
Pain. Unrelenting, debilitating pain. All day. All night. Abdomen, left kidney/lower back, pelvis, the privates – all of it. Is it the cancer? Is it the impacted stool? Is it the stent? Is it all of it? Have been “going” for the past hour or so but no relief. Even so, it’s good to beContinue reading “July 11, 2020”
July 10, 2020
It is after midnight. A few hours ago I learned that if I don’t start chemo immediately, my tumor could invade a blood vessel and cause immediate death. I am so scared. And I am angry that no doctor told me this horrendous fact. I don’t want to die from an internal hemorrhage. This isContinue reading “July 10, 2020”
July 9, 2020
Had a scare this afternoon. My colon is “sloughing” every morning (very uncomfortable). That means I have to “go.” I don’t know if “sloughing” every day is normal – another thing the doctors didn’t care to share. I will tell you that I don’t know when it’s coming and I can’t control it when itContinue reading “July 9, 2020”
July 8, 2020
I have had a bad couple of days and didn’t want to complain so didn’t write. I don’t know if or when the pain and discomfort will stop. That’s the worst part. Will I ever return to a somewhat normal life? Will I live? I do have some good news. Two old friends from collegeContinue reading “July 8, 2020”
