I’m afraid. It’s 4:15 a.m. and I’m up for good. I haven’t really been afraid since I found out about all this on May 21st, but for some reason, I woke up this morning and all I felt was fear. I have all my remaining scans scheduled for tomorrow. (They changed my schedule). What ifContinue reading “May 27, 2020”
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May 26, 2020
It’s 3:13 a.m. I just woke up in a sweat. This is the fourth night I have done so. Last week (before diagnosis), the physician’s assistant asked for a rundown of my symptoms and one of her concerns was whether I was having “night sweats”. I had just started waking up in the morning withContinue reading “May 26, 2020”
May 25, 2020
Well, it’s a new day. I am worse right now. The difference in my condition day-to-day was not as noticeable to me before my diagnosis. So either the cancer is moving aggressively or I am simply more conscious of it now that I know what is happening. Either way, it’s frightening. My MRI and CTContinue reading “May 25, 2020”
May 24, 2020
Good morning. I had a hard time sleeping last night – a lot of pain – so I went into my own bed. I had been telling my mother about the pain at night but she had never seen it. She was so upset for me this morning. She barely slept herself. This is allContinue reading “May 24, 2020”
May 23, 2020
I slept in my mother’s bed again last night. She changed the sheets so everything was fresh and clean and cool. I am so very lucky that she is still with me. I told her that it was like we were having a slumber party. We stayed up researching the cancer websites and talking. TheContinue reading “May 23, 2020”
May 22, 2020 – The Day After Diagnosis
It is now 7:49 a.m. on May 22, 2020. I have been up since 2 a.m. and talking to my mother since 4. I have three butter cookies on a plate from last night and a bowl of oatmeal from this morning sitting on her bedside table. I can’t eat any of it. And IContinue reading “May 22, 2020 – The Day After Diagnosis”
