I am sick of being sick. I have been sick since January 2020. I have been unable to sleep a full night and have been in pain daily and nightly since February 2020. And I am only in for more. And I am sick of it. Every night it’s the same thing: I fall asleepContinue reading “July 5, 2020”
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July 4, 2020
Another rough day. I didn’t write yesterday because who wants to hear about bowel, bowel, bowel but the reality is that my life is now all about and only about the bowel. I am sick, sick, sick. All day long, I wait for my colostomy bag to fill up. When it fills up (typically withinContinue reading “July 4, 2020”
July 2, 2020
I know it’s the same old same old but this is the reality: my colon back-up is stopping my recovery. I am very hungry and today I ate. I ate small amounts throughout the day but at about 4:00 p.m. I ate ALOT. I am paying for it now. I have been paying for itContinue reading “July 2, 2020”
July 1, 2020
I have been doing paperwork up the wazoo. Endless, endless paperwork. You don’t want to know – all move and health related. In the meantime, I’m in pain. Sheer, unadulterated pain. I think it’s the stent in my ureter (bladder to kidney) given the location of the pain and the fact that I spotted bloodContinue reading “July 1, 2020”
June 30, 2020
I bought cemetery plots today. My mom and I woke up around 5:00 a.m. and left the house at 7:00 a.m. We drove to the town to which we’re moving next month. I was starving when we arrived so we stopped at Subway and picked me up a 6 inch tuna. Then we met withContinue reading “June 30, 2020”
June 29, 2020
I weighed myself this morning because for the past two days I have had a huge stool output – I assume the backed-up stool that caused my problems (but maybe not). I have had to empty my colostomy bag five times each day. And I have been as sick as a dog – weak, nauseous,Continue reading “June 29, 2020”
June 28, 2020
I’m having a tough time. I woke up this morning, felt well, ate breakfast, and climbed back into bed. A short while later, with no warning except a tiny, split second feeling of pressure, blood, mucous and feces poured out of my anus. It got all over my new nightgown (a cute number from WalmartContinue reading “June 28, 2020”
June 27, 2020
Flat on my back for most of the day. In pain. Producing stool balls. My abdomen x-ray showed impacted stool balls the full length of my colon. And now they are slowly coming out. It hurts. Depleted. Love, Molly2923
June 26, 2020
I am home. My cat does not want to leave my side. She is purring and nestling against me. I am loved as is she. We were apart for too long. I may have suffered in the hospital but I think this ordeal was toughest on her. I have much to say about my experienceContinue reading “June 26, 2020”
June 24, 2020
I have a lot to say but not tonight. It has been a very rough two days. They have increased my bowel regimen to include enimas administered through my now raw and traumatized stoma. It has been painful and exhausting. I am going home tomorrow. I cannot wait. I have to have two more enimasContinue reading “June 24, 2020”