So here are my thoughts the night before I start my first day of chemo: Bring it on. Let’s kill that goddamn tumor. Pain is quite the motivator and I have been in excruciating pain for the past hour – reminding me that the tumor is there, taking over my body. Well, tomorrow morning, noContinue reading “July 26, 2020”
Category Archives: Pain
July 19, 2020
Pain. Unrelenting. Don’t know if it’s my colon or the tumor. Can’t take it. Producing stool – lots of it – all day. Hope the pain is from the stool production not the tumor. Sick. Love, Molly2923
July 18, 2020
It’s 2:15 a.m. on July 17, 2020. I’m in trouble bubble. Really sick/pain. The surgical team never called me back about my output. I left a second message yesterday morning and nothing. I haven’t had output since Sunday. I am in severe pain when I urinate and when I don’t. I’m a mess. It’s 6:30Continue reading “July 18, 2020”
July 14, 2020
I just had my first cup of coffee since my colon woes began in earnest in February. I had a mocha java made stove top in my Bialetti with hot milk and a toasted blueberry muffin. It was so good. I mean SO GOOD. I love coffee and a muffin. Just love it. I likeContinue reading “July 14, 2020”
July 11, 2020
Pain. Unrelenting, debilitating pain. All day. All night. Abdomen, left kidney/lower back, pelvis, the privates – all of it. Is it the cancer? Is it the impacted stool? Is it the stent? Is it all of it? Have been “going” for the past hour or so but no relief. Even so, it’s good to beContinue reading “July 11, 2020”
July 8, 2020
I have had a bad couple of days and didn’t want to complain so didn’t write. I don’t know if or when the pain and discomfort will stop. That’s the worst part. Will I ever return to a somewhat normal life? Will I live? I do have some good news. Two old friends from collegeContinue reading “July 8, 2020”
July 1, 2020
I have been doing paperwork up the wazoo. Endless, endless paperwork. You don’t want to know – all move and health related. In the meantime, I’m in pain. Sheer, unadulterated pain. I think it’s the stent in my ureter (bladder to kidney) given the location of the pain and the fact that I spotted bloodContinue reading “July 1, 2020”
June 27, 2020
Flat on my back for most of the day. In pain. Producing stool balls. My abdomen x-ray showed impacted stool balls the full length of my colon. And now they are slowly coming out. It hurts. Depleted. Love, Molly2923
June 22, 2020
Very sick. Excruciating pain. Nauseated. Emergency x-rays and exam tonight. Given all kinds of medicine to move the stool. No results. Terribly sick. Can’t write. Love, Molly2923
June 7, 2020
OK. I got up the courage to step on the scale. I now weigh 104.5 pounds. I am 5′ 6″ tall. I have not yet started treatment – have not even seen an oncologist. I am beyond disgusted and horrified by our medical system. No one is tracking my symptoms. No one. I am inContinue reading “June 7, 2020”
